Monthly Archives: October 2013

Grace, Amazing… [POEM]

There is
something
about going through
the storm
prepared
that makes
a difference
when
the lightning
and the rain
and the wind
and hail
and the hell
comes
to destroy
everything
in its way,

There is something
about
being able to say,
“Thank You”
for
Amazing Grace.

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

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You are right…

YOU have to make this happen if you want this to happen the way that you want it to happen. Your vision requires you to visit the depths of what is possible and pertinent inside of you without assurance(s) or assumptions that someone or anyone will understand, let alone take the opportunity to undertake any task that requires them to move your progress forward. Sure there is someone that will help you, someone that wants to help you, but they are just the help, you are the reason that you will get to where you desire, are determined, and are dedicated to be. You have to get up, you have to get out, you have to go on, you have to go forward, you have to give what you have and only expect that what you give is sufficient. You don’t get to be guaranteed that anything or anyone will back you or that their backing will suffice or sustain. You are your consistency, you are your method, your habit, your tradition, your ethic, you are your character. You are your reason and your biggest excuse. You are your option just as much as you are your choice.
There is something that you want. There is something that you crave and obsess over. There is an idea or gift or talent or ability that you have, that you know, in the pit of your gut, that is necessary and valid and marketable, and meaningful, and worth fighting for. There is a feeling, a peace, a confidence, a love, a trust, a safety, a security, and a significance that you know exists and is possible and is surely attainable for you. You are not out to get what someone, anyone, else has. You want what is for you and you know that what you want is different and you can imagine and dream and fantasize the difference so easily that the thoughts are almost tangible. You know it. You know that it can happen and you know that you can make it happen.
You are right.

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

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You may never get the apology you deserve or the answer you demand or the approval that you desire. You may be deprived, you may be denied.
The one thing that you most certainly do “get” if you are determined is to decide what not getting or getting those things does to and/or for you; You get to define what you mean to you, you get to destroy whatever is in your way, you get to defy the odds. You get to be deliberate. You get deliverance, and you get to deliver your destiny.

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Open… [POEM]

Open…

There’s a difference
between air-bending
and pretending
between being
and sending
the wrong message
pending interpretation
patience
ain’t the same as waiting
for something to just happen
facing ain’t the same
as dealing
and dying ain’t the same
as being killed
so I’m filled with questions
suggestions to my integrity
because I let it be
didn’t fight
when I was supposed to
shame and rejection
that I felt
prevented me
from exposing you
so I was exposed too
looked like the evil
that controlled you
and kept it all a secret
because I was told to
bended all the way
backwards
now you want me to fold too
NO
no chance
no deal
cancel Christmas
which is really what you did
cancelled Christmases
with your wickedness
and I’ve been getting the gift
re-gifted,
being a victim
wrapped and ripped
meticulously
believing that this
was all I could get
ridiculously
and more preposterous,
fictitiously
but now I know the difference
between you and me
and I get to release…
immediately.

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

You are okay.

Do not focus on what you “think” others have. Do not worry or concern yourselves with what appears to be the unfair balance of favor or blessing or even “luck” amongst the people that you are able to witness and observe. Do not let what “seems to be” seep into what is what is supposed to be your journey, your process, your own reality, your story. Do not give into the temptation to feel sorry or shame on or for yourself and subsequently sacrifice what is your true value, your road, your path, your process.

From the outside looking in, things always look different, or look better, or look easier, or look amazing BUT you have no idea what someone else is or is not dealing with in order to present what you think you see! You don’t have a clue what it takes them to manage what you think they always “manage” to get their hands on. So often popularity survives on perceptions. Far too often what looks so alive is either dead or dying from having to exhort obscene amounts of energy and emotion to maintain images and lifestyles that “seem” or “sound like” success. You would probably crumble under the weight of their burden being that you don’t have the strength or desire to work so hard at the “nothingness” that is often required to have some things or the “something” that you think they have.

Do you.
Do what you have to do.
Do whatever it takes for you to have whatever it takes for you to reach where you have to go, where you have to be. Focus on peace of YOUR mind. Focus on happiness and joy in YOUR home. Focus on success for YOUR situation.
Don’t let these social networks, pictures, and updates fool you. Don’t let these “bands” that you think people got, get wrapped around you. Those “bands” get tight and there are some people who look like they are “successful” that are actually suffering, most likely suffocating under the weight and pressure of having to constantly produce the image in order to try to please somebody other than themselves. You’re focused on what you think you see, they’re frustrated with who you think they are…
It is not worth it.
You’re okay where you are. You can start from here. You can start now. You can build an empire on the foundation that is you. You have what it takes. You probably have something that “they” want and would take if they could, that’s a chance to do it over, a chance to do it for themselves and not for the crowd. A chance to do it for the love and not to be doing it so “loud”.
Yes, you’re okay. And from the outside looking in, they can see that.

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

The process…

There is a PROCESS that GOD must protect. That is why you have had to progress or be promoted in parts, that is why you can picture it but can’t quite paint it, why you can predict it but can’t quite provide it. This is why you have to produce for so long, seemingly so much so before you get to party or prosper from the products or the projections, even before you get the “proof”. This is why you feel like others can play but you have to pause. It is because you know GOD and because you know Him, He trusts you, and because he trusts you, He has entrusted you with His most important possession, His most profound property, His real treasure:
The Process!

This is not about your pain, bad people have pain, good people have pain, great people have pain, BLESSED people have pain, FAVORED people have pain! This ain’t about your poverty or your problems. This ain’t about your position or promises made to you or by you. This ain’t about your peculiar or particular ministry or your popularity. This is about the process! This is about you getting to a point where you can get the point and start pointing your life in a direction that deflects what the world has tried to say about GOD and His way away from the who/what/when/where/why of what is you personally, regardless of which way things or the world go, have gone, or are going! This is about you being able to profess and promote, in person, the pride that there is in going through and having gone through the process.

We’ve tried to make this about people and prosperity but know this, GOD don’t need prophets or profits, there is no shortage of either! There is however a shortage of understanding and peace with His process. There is a gap in between what is His message and our interpretation. There is a hole in the body that is the void that we have tried to fill with “stuff” in order to compensate or comfort ourselves away from what is our true purpose and His certain pleasure, THE PROCESS!

That’s what Jesus is. That’s what Jesus is about. That is why Jesus came. Not because of or for His expressions, but for His example, of THE PROCESS. Jesus illustrates the process. Jesus is the peace, the pain, the patience, the performance, the power, the passion, the push and the pull, the perfect portrait and portrayal, the power, yes I will keep saying that, THE POWER, I will repeat that, THE POWER… of THE PROCESS.

Because you are here, you are subject to the process, to a process. You will endure a process as the natural reaction to any spiritual awakening, awareness, or alertness. You may come into that awakening or awareness as a child but not realize the specific and required elements of that, YOUR, particular purpose in it or for it and so it may take you years, decades, to “get it”. That time in between is the process. You can stall the process, you can prolong the process, you can try to avoid the process but if you have any hope of gaining the “what is yours” that is perfectly and purposefully designed and designated for you, you are going to complete that process! As long as you take, no matter how hard you try not to or try to take it, you are going to complete that process.

I’m done preaching, you may proceed!

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Belief… (Remembering) [POEM]

I remember remembering
my memories
of the many things
worth mentioning
from the beginning
the “anything’s”
that you did for me
plenty of things
that had me considering
surrendering
sifting through
the significantly
and the itty bitty things
the so many things
that created this energy
that this reality is currently
giving me…

I’m learning to let go
of remembering
so that I can move on
from alone
to we…

belief.

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Proceed, naked… [POEM]

We write poetry
in nude poses
supposedly
in support of showing things
like how beautiful we are
as hopeless beings
as vocalist
in silent dreams
as token values
in broken schemes
as mad articulates
in spoken deeds
with our bodies
interwoven fiends
strewn across canvases
stolen by focused thieves
who rendezvous with dark
to expose their gleam

like innocent naked bodies
that disclose their needs
broken by disappointment
that bleeds
focused on old wisdom
that reads:

It’s yours to give away,
proceed

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Sad love poem (About you) … [POEM]

I find it funny
that you love me
that you care
that you’re there
that you’re aware
of me not loving you
the way you need me to
or need to be
but still believe
in the strangest things
like fairy tales
and make believe
and other things
that make me seem
worth the wait
or worth the chase
or worth the fate
that might be terrible
like only a taste
or a look at a menu
through a window
from a view
that has nothing
absolutely nothing
to do with you
but still you look
from where you are
reminding me with your pain
and showing me scars
that bear my name
your self-inflicted injury
inspired by me
and I find it funny
that you find me beautiful
after all the ugliness
that I put you through
and every other thing
that I made you lose
because you couldn’t do both
love yourself and love me too
or take care of yourself
or responsibility
trying to prove to me
what it’s like
when someone believes
but I didn’t seem to notice
or even see
anything special
about how special you were
to me
instead it just seemed
that I laughed
at how you gasped
and choked
bended
and broke
you worried,
I wrote
you hurt,
I hoped
that you’d forget
and then relent
but instead I’d prepare
and you would pretend
that this would be
something different
something you could find funny
and far from true
like the sad love poems
that I write about you…

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©2013 Cornelious “See” Flowers