Category Archives: Uncategorized

No Regrets [POEM]

the way you loved me worked

even if the way you loved me hurt

but I’d long ago gotten used to it

after all, I’d gotten use through it

I prefer a pain that prepares me

and being ignored just scares me

so I was always going to make it

to show you that I could take it

while you’d never been challenged

for manners you had learned malice

I felt that I could reach you

felt my submission would teach you

oh, you hurt me as routine

but my wants were as you need

I surrendered pride and peace

for attention

traded self-esteem and dignity

for a mention

I am torn for your amusement

worn or warned as you choose it

you found new ways to destroy

apology used as a decoy

my body served you first and last

you never had to ask

I had to beg for reciprocity

or for you to get on top of me

to adore me in your lust

you’d just ignore me in your rush

your pleasing was to oblige me

but you’ve never been inside me

while I emptied you of desire

you just let mines expire…

but the way you loved me worked

even if the way you loved me hurt.


©2018 Cornelious “See” Flowers



On Social Media…

suffice it to say,
everyone cheats
but not everyone gets caught
just as well,
everybody is for sell
but not everyone gets bought
no man is without blame
we all are guilty at a very least
each and all are liars to some extent
silence is honor amongst the thieves
pillow talk could serve subpoena
trust will indict for blame
emotions produce the evidence
hurt will mirror just the same
the resentment of regret
is why optimism dies
facing towards the past
is for production of the cries
jealousy is how we go
hate is why we do
ego is always toxic
pride is always proof
there are no true rules of engagement
be it just necessary means
hard work humbled by a lottery
of beneficial cons and schemes
and everyone is just as ready
to pounce upon the wave
a master speak in master,
and a slave should speak in slave
electronic crowds of the foolish
photographic clouds contain the midst
no particular order of success
just whomever made the list
green lights direct the traffic
along this worldwide web
spiders of insecurity
catch their prey by walking dead
a false sense of belonging
misguided notions of a ruse
in a snap she loses dignity
bartered cheaply for some views
and to some victim comes the spoil
a rotted carcass dressed in shame
pleading guilty of being normal
or being wanted, just the same
ideas toward being different
shot down by capitalists
follow me for your instruction
is from the wisdom of assists
and share in this destruction
leave your soul and sight behind
better yet to be accepted
than to ignore these private lives
diminish your capacity
for who you were to be
he left his true ambition
for the attention of a scene
haven’t seen them since logging on
been different zombies by the day
remembered to check your timeline
but forgot to walk away
and no distinction of these victims
child and parent share alike
whose to say there should be different
if we pretend it not as why
continue scrolling down this spiral
and find yourself along the way
another mention in the graveyard
becoming ghost of hollowed way

… suffice it to say,
everyone cheats
but not everyone gets caught
just as well,
everybody is for sell
but not everyone gets bought.


©2018 Cornelious “See” Flowers

i could feel… [POEM]

there are reasons to love
and be made fool of
at least once
every chance you get
for the sake of a chance to say
that such is not a myth
instead more like got to be
yet for some it is everything,
and not to me
but the pain that comes in tow
is one that only death should know
yet here i am again
wishing love to be my friend
or to at least find mercy even
when alas that love is leaving
to play sport of another’s heart
and turn so my light to dark
for nothing but the thrill
of saying i could feel.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Choke…   [POEM]

fickle as a heart can be
damned it was so usual to me
kicking about the grounds as leave
for no other reason than best if we

should you find a way home
i would absolutely go

passing time as more than such
but never ever meaning much
for what would serve a sooner try
than acting toward a living lie

after the world shows you right
come to my space the after night

rude it is of consequence
to mock the life of same
and there we were all meant to be
but too afraid to change

if you ever need to breathe
come suffocate with me.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

i find you… [POEM]

i find
then here i am,
lost again
searching the ways to love you
at any cost there is
i find
somewhat beyond this ordinary
a particular breed of different,
more than every
greater than, unequal to
not even amazing can equal you
and i find
beautiful above all
inside and out
from your past
to the present you are to me
this time amounts
to perfect
i find you worth it
a purpose that responds in change
so unlike my beautiful before
you reflect the same
so i find
even in my quiet
even when i am right next to you
even if i don’t try it
to fall asleep aside
staring you alive
living inside this perpetual moment
floating this sky
’till i find
by some window
waiting me to bid you near
asking for your soul in matrimony
showing my whole so clear,

because i find


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

attempt at… [POEM]

there is an emptiness
a space left after you
a hole filled with something else’s
just something else’s,
and there is nothing left to do
but feel the void
i escaped assurance
for the sake of paranoid
more questions than your questions
i’m somewhat skeptical
so my mind offers suggestions

i should stop thinking
or start drinking
a vice would suffice
when what’s left won’t get me right
lest i repeat a cycle
practice for the recital
i bet this excites you
that i’m not so well
and you can tell

here’s this image
this unfortunate blemish
this wickedness seeming to exist
and an audacity to remiss
suppose a heart had its own way
unabated by the brain
immune of sorts to possibility
and ignorant to change
but we’d still have been the same
i, part of the problem
you, part of the game

i would do it another way
juxtaposition in accord with healing,
somewhat disdain for the result,
the whole thing could have been,

where is the redemption
does mistake qualify exemption?
maybe there was good reason
validation for an attempt
when all is well upon all is gone
i was there all along
not to leave for the sake of indelible
this thirst is almost edible
absolutely incredible
i am still here,

Where are you…


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

oh-ver…   [POEM]

almost said i do
before i was able to
would have been a tragedy
the kind love aspires to
but could have gotten through
or at least mean to
like most
but i want you to be forever
like ghost
i lean for happiness to haunt you
like host
there to see you through
and hurt you till you heal
develop callouses to being lied to
and get over pain,
because you tried to
with no feeling
because it died to
that’s real
that’s the solution to being killed
eternal life is a skill,
applied to
and i almost went the way
of not choosing what i mean to say
standing there at an alter
indifferent to the day
making promises i hope to break
like i am present for presences sake
what time does time take
how far is time away
and how long can time wait
if you only pretend to be awake…

i almost let you leave
without forcing you to breathe
should have pushed you away
or at least made you see
that going would be best
but staying would hurt less
in the mean time we die
like wings that cannot fly.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

buy-polar…  [POEM]

i get to ask you questions
and i demand answers,
i deserve truth
because i love myself
now that i’ve learned to
forget that i yearn you
no hurt is worth me losing faith
the sun brings forth life
but it burns too
and i’d rather live
so i’m giving myself a right to
with or without you,
depending on how i feel
based on how you comport
even more so on what you conceal
so i’ll let you heal
fall apart without me
blame me if you need to
it doesn’t matter what i say
as long as you believe you
perception becomes reality
when you allow it to seem to.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Love is (what you make it)… [POEM]

love is too often
and so i recite it…

“i will not love by myself”

not you,
not anybody else
not for any reason
so either reciprocate
or remove yourself

love is too damn ambiguous,
so be more specific

not just “You’re the only one…”
but You
-Insert full name here-
ARE the ONLY one
and Faithful to

The only one that
i share my body with
and only one i romance
the only one i give that energy to
say you are where i belong,
you are the only one that can

life is so random
i want change and consistent
to go in tandem
and it be just us
from here on out
partners in perpetuity,
what i’m talking about

is different
by difference
not just the way
but what we say,

happiness is relative
and subject to growth
we are not what we did
we are what we do the most

Can we host fidelity?

and be honest
i need your presence at all times,
i can do without a promise

words are just words
even when you mean them
you have to be who you say you are,
so i can believe them

and i will more than express,
i will example
there is no time to waste,
the requirements are ample

feelings are abundant
and memories always make sense
but i have made a choice
and my soul is convinced

WE get to be together
because we decide and do the work
and all that happens then
is perfection as a perk.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers

Reach for Me… [POEM]

I want you to reach for me
like you reach for your phone,
first thing in the morning

and give me that kind of attention

hold me for that long
focus on me that way

and because what you see
is that interesting,
talk about me all day

I want you
to keep checking on me,
when you have something else to do
when there are
not many more important things
that you could engage upon,
make me the priority for you

and share
things about me
even save some things
so that you don’t forget

let what you see
in me
influence your thoughts
and actions,
then defend me
and my argument

get caught up in me
as time just passes by
and pretend
that I am not a distraction
when someone asks you why

look for me
like I’m missing
when you know I’m somewhere near
protect me
with precaution and measure
have rules regarding me
ever so clear

I want you
to be so caught up in me
that you don’t notice
anything else
silent smiles and giggles,
like you’re in a world
all by yourself

I want you
to reach for me
give me
that kind of safe
can I be the world you get lost in?
give you that kind of place

I don’t want us to get disconnected
only Godly distractions
should there be
I refuse
to allow unnecessary dysfunction
I have decided
your attention
for me

so it is you,
that I will find captivating
to you,
that I will bring my all
for you,
shall I present my particular
in you,
I build my wall

I won’t ever be your confusion
but a constant source of light
all the anything you ever need,
if you choose to live this life.


©2017 Cornelious “See” Flowers