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- Now I get to… Part 30.For a long time I was told that I was depressed. They tried to treat me for depression. They attempted to isolate and at one point institutionalize me because of… Read more: Now I get to… Part 30.
- Time to move on. Part 29.You ever been nowhere, all over, and in the same place, all at one time? Part 29. What. The. Fvck. Do. I. Do. Now? Today is March 25, 2024. I… Read more: Time to move on. Part 29.
- Time to move on. Part 28Part 28. I’z free. Eyes free. I can SEE, now. It almost angers me to recognize and realize the amount and degree of power that Hazel had over me. For… Read more: Time to move on. Part 28
- Time to move on. Part 27.Part 27.Lessons well EARNED. Oh, I didn’t stop writing the “parts”. I spent 30 years trying to have a one-on-one with Hazel. I, foolishly, (with good and sincere intent though)… Read more: Time to move on. Part 27.
- Time to move on. Part 26.Part 26. (This will be the last post, talk, conversation, or anything that I do, being from the victimized, guilted, ashamed, unaccountable, and fearful perspective. This post was difficult to… Read more: Time to move on. Part 26.
- Time to move on. Part 25.Part 25. (Today, February 1, 2024, my Mother would have been 70 years old. I want to celebrate. Because I haven’t been able to, for 30 years. I’d love to… Read more: Time to move on. Part 25.
- Time to move on. Part 24.Part 24 I’m not going to substitute one bogeyman for another. Hazel is dead. I know who she was and I know what she did. Not what I felt or… Read more: Time to move on. Part 24.
- Time to move on. Part 23.Part 23. I wrote this letter (the attachment at the bottom) to Hazel Ezell in 2013. It was posted on Facebook. I published it online via my website and some… Read more: Time to move on. Part 23.
- Time to move on. Part 22.Part 22. I applaud anyone that is able to focus, manage, maintain, progress, produce, push, and persevere through unspeakable tragedy. People that are able to set aside or “move on”… Read more: Time to move on. Part 22.
- Time to move on. Part 21.Part 21. Last night I went to bed, for the first time in almost 30 years, knowing that Hazel Ezell was no longer on this earth. I went to bed… Read more: Time to move on. Part 21.
- Time to move on. Part 20.Part 20. I’m not sure what I expected to feel the moment that there was no longer the shadow that has been over me for all of this time. Happiness?… Read more: Time to move on. Part 20.
- Time to move on. Part 19.Part 19. About 14 years ago I started recording my dad whenever we have conversations. He’s never known that I do it. I don’t make it obvious. I started the… Read more: Time to move on. Part 19.
- Time to move on. Part 18.Part 18. I have a client who I’ve been cutting for years. Never known his name. That’s odd for me. I’m usually very personable and conversational with my clients. It… Read more: Time to move on. Part 18.
- Time to move On. Part 17.(If you don’t have some time, scroll past this post. It’s long. I have to tell my whole story. Not parts. This is going to require your attention.) I want… Read more: Time to move On. Part 17.
- Time to move on. Part 16.Someone asked me recently what kind of blowback do I get from posting all of the stuff that I post about the person that murdered my Mother. “None.” I have… Read more: Time to move on. Part 16.
- Time to move on. Part 15.5.Part 15.5 “Take a Seat” Imagine coming to a concert and the first 25 rows had seats that displayed a “reserved” sign with a name attached… But you purchased tickets… Read more: Time to move on. Part 15.5.
- Time to move on. Part 15.Part 15. “That part. I was 15.” Over the past few weeks I’ve gotten numerous phone calls, text messages, inbox messages, and comments on posts that are apologies. Apologies from… Read more: Time to move on. Part 15.
- Time to move on. Part 14.Two plus Too equals Four.To plus 2 = For. Part 14. “A blood-y scene.” I left the Chicago poetry scene years ago. And I’m a good poet. Not patting myself… Read more: Time to move on. Part 14.
- Time to move on. Part 13.She won’t go to jail. I’m not going to fool myself into believing that she will. I’m not even frustrated by the reality that she may not confess or supply… Read more: Time to move on. Part 13.
- Time to move on. Part 12.6 in one hand, half of a dozen in the other. “Same Sh¡t” Today I called the Dixmoor Police Station. “We don’t have anything from that time period.” I’ve heard… Read more: Time to move on. Part 12.
- Time to move on. Part 11.The gay part. (This was originally written and posted a week ago. I’m just adding it as a “part” to make it easier to find.) —- Wanna hear something EXTREMELY… Read more: Time to move on. Part 11.
- Time to move on. Part 10.“Say sorry.” Talking to my son yesterday… I tell him that I’ve been healing and on the other side of this is a better version of me. He says, “…… Read more: Time to move on. Part 10.
- Time to move on. Part 9.In or around the year 2000, my biological Father, Mayn, and I were having a conversation. The conversation was about “all my money”. I was asking him why he always… Read more: Time to move on. Part 9.
- Time to move on. Part 8.At one point in time, some years back, I was homeless. I was homeless for almost 3 years. No one knew. I had a gym membership to make sure I… Read more: Time to move on. Part 8.
- Time to move on. Part 7.I am my story. Thursday, February 4, 2010, 7:40 pm. I was driving, on my way to see my son, through Dixmoor, Illinois. I turned off of 147th street onto… Read more: Time to move on. Part 7.
- Time to move on. Part 6.“Say her name.” I’ve been saying all of this for 30 years. I didn’t just start speaking out.I didn’t just start speaking up. I screamed everything that I am screaming… Read more: Time to move on. Part 6.
- Time to move on. Part 5.Broccoli. Broccoli florets, specifically. When the results of my Mother’s autopsy came back it was notated with the fact that her stomach contained broccoli florets. For all the non-medical examiner,… Read more: Time to move on. Part 5.
- Time to move on. Part 4.All these years of asking questions and trying to get answers, reaching out as I have, fighting and seeking justice for my Mom, has been exhausting.I’ve been the only one… Read more: Time to move on. Part 4.
- Time to move on. Part 3.The other day my Dad acknowledged, to me, for the first time, my Mother’s sexuality. He’s never said it out loud, to me. Even after I discovered- some years after… Read more: Time to move on. Part 3.
- Time to move on. Part 2.Almost EVERYONE disappeared. Those that didn’t disappear, shut up. Those that didn’t shut up, entered denial. Those not in denial, moved on. To this date, 12/1/2023, 29 years, 8 months,… Read more: Time to move on. Part 2.
- Time to move on. Part 1.My Mother was murdered 29 years, 8 months, and 2 days ago. Let me tell you a little about that… A few weeks ago I was made aware that the… Read more: Time to move on. Part 1.
- Her last words…The last words my Mother said to me were, “Corey, don’t you want to stay home with this weekend?”I told her no.That was Friday, March 25, 1994.We were on our… Read more: Her last words…
- We’re keeping secrets that everyone knows. You can’t help or heal like that.More could have been done.More should have been done.More would have been done, if YOU would have refused to maintain the mediocrity, hypocrisy, and tradition that you were accustomed to.… Read more: We’re keeping secrets that everyone knows. You can’t help or heal like that.
- God can’t use You like that…To whom it may concern: Stop sending me the Bible scriptures you don’t live by. Stop telling me stories of the Jesus you don’t follow yourself. Stop trying to control… Read more: God can’t use You like that…
- You are not okay.It is okay to cry. It’s alright to scream. There’s nothing wrong with showing emotion, expressing yourself. You have feelings. You have every right to feel. It is okay for… Read more: You are not okay.
- They want you hurt.There are some people beneficially connected to the hurt you. Those people are not going to easily acknowledge, accept, or appreciate your healing process, your healing requirements, or the results… Read more: They want you hurt.
- Your Healed Self.You cannot expect anyone to save the you that needs to be saved. Or to care for the you that needs to be cared for. Or to protect the you… Read more: Your Healed Self.
- YOU.Sometimes YOU have to be the one to save YOU. YOU have to go and get the YOU that was left behind. YOU have to be the one to pick… Read more: YOU.
- Deal with It.At some point in your life, you’re going to have to face yourself. You’re going to have to deal with you. You will have to acknowledge and accept that YOU… Read more: Deal with It.
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